A weekly feature, where I double dog dare you to do something bold, something creative, something courageous.
So that you can more fully become who you really are…
Take A Courageous Step Forward
18 years ago I dropped out of college.
I was a math major who decided that what I really wanted to do was be a film maker. So I quit in search of a film school. Then one thing led to another, and I never went.
Probably 7 years or so later, I was working for a company, working too hard and dreaming of something else, something more creative and artistic. I boldly decided to quit my job and go to art school ~ to study photography.
Which, never happened. I ended up staying with the company, living in Europe and doing lots of other really cool, amazing things.
But, no film. No photography.
Then, I became a mother and this photography passion started to bloom again. As well as a new interest in graphic design, making websites, that kind of thing.
But, going back to school? Or pursuing my passions full time? Yeah, not going to happen.
I’m a mom and I had other obligations taking care of my family, running our household, etc. I didn’t have the time or the money to spend on exploring my passions. My family needed me and taking huge chunks of time for something just for me, well, that would just be unthinkable.
Well, then the unthinkable happened and our family broke up. As I started to confront my life and what I was going to do, those old artist dreams bubbled back up to the surface.
Putting one foot in front of the other, doing tons of research, I found myself applying to school – to a multi media program that will teach me so much about all these things that I have dreamed of over the years – film, photography, graphic design.
School started today.
And I am so happy. Like seriously on the verge of happy tears all day happy. Why? Because a deeply buried dream is here right now. It’s happening. NOW. It is no longer a forgotten, never going to happen wish, or a someday, but not now dream. My being an artist dream is here right now in THIS moment.
Sitting in class today, being totally blown away by all that I am about to learn, feeling so confident in who I am, in my dreams, in what I want for my life, these are the thoughts that kept floating in my mind ~ “I am an artist. A real artist. Learning, exploring, discovering. I am doing it. This is who I am. I belong here.”
My dream went from dream to reality. I have a huge, long list of art supplies that I need, things I don’t even know what they are. But I get to go buy them. I fiddled around with a super sexy macinosh computer fully loaded with all the latest and greatest. And I have some amazing people lined up to show me how to use those art supplies and what to do with all the latest and greatest.
The dream is here. I’m doing it. It’s real. It’s happening.
And, what an amazing feeling that is! To realize something that my heart has been longing for, aching for really. For it to be transformed from a wish to reality. I feel so fulfilled, so confident, so inspired, so full.
So, this is your dare for the week:
Take a courageous step forward ~ toward your dreams. Do something that brings whatever it is you want for YOUR life that much closer to actually happening. It doesn’t have to be a big, huge step, but is does have to be courageous. A leap of faith. Moving your life directly into the space you want it to go without knowing just how amazing it will feel when you get yourself there. Without being sure just how happy you will be when you discover that you made something happen that you really, really wanted.
Trust me, today is proof. You will be happy and you will feel amazing.
Drop the excuses and the reasons why you can’t. Don’t wait for something totally sucky to happen that forces you to take some action. Give yourself permission. Someday is not going to happen unless you act today.
What is that deep, buried dream that you still really, really want?